Detox day 3

Headache kept me up half the night... Just enough to be slightly awake because of the pain of it.

Woke up at 7am having gotten 7.5 hrs of sleep, and like yesterday it feels like I cried myself to sleep.  Eyes are super puffy and head is heavy.... Not feeling energetic.  Headache mostly gone, though.

Down a pound but it doesn't look like it to me, I still look puffy.  Also down 3 inches in my waist, but also still looks pretty puffy to me.

Today I meet with the doctor at 1:40pm and I cannot wait. I want to ask ... "WHY!?!?!!"

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Okay... the appointment was good because it made me want to stay on track.

I shared everything I was feeling including that THIS FUCKING SUCKS.

I was told:

• Anger/short fuse is super normal on a detox
• "I can't do this" is super normal on a detox
• Remind yourself to think with your heart and not your head-- it's just 7 days, you can do this for yourself
• Headache is from the detox and the demand put on kidneys, etc to flush out all this waste, usually it isn't this much in such a short time
• The reason why nuts and seeds and beans aren't allowed is because they are harder for the body to digest/process and the idea behind the detox is to flush everything out and fruits and vegetables are the best way to do that

I went to the grocery store a bit after the appointment and I decided, "Okay, fuck this detox... I'm going to rally and make it to Saturday."  I bought a ton of bags of frozen organic berries, and I'm going to just smoothie this bitch out.

I also thought how badly I want guacamole... and realized I can have it!  So, I got some crispy romaine... then I smashed up an avocado, added tomato, lime juice, salt, and jalepeno... spooned onto a romaine leaf... it was actually my favorite thing I've had this whole detox... it was the only thing I'd eat again next week.  Then I made a smoothie out of a berry medley, water, and 3 bananas and shared it with my family.  I thought it would be shit with no almond milk-- but it was much better than I thought.  And then I felt okay.  I felt like-- okay-- I am doing this-- I can do it... I am almost halfway!

Peeing a LOT.  Thirsty A LOT.  Tomorrow I start the Repairvite for 30 days for my leaky gut.

My pic of the guac isn't a good shot I can see... I had lots of jalepeno and tomato in there... but I scarfed down a bunch and only on my last one did I remember to take a pic.

Food diary:

Apple

Potatoes roasted in coconut oil and rosemary and garlic (leftovers from last night)

5 lettuce/guac wraps

1 smoothie

a TON of pineapple

more potatoes roasted in all that jazz above as a 10:30pm snack

1,154 calories

It should be noted I wasn't especially hungry-- I didn't try not to eat...the joy of it was just sapped for me until I had those guac wraps at 5:30pm.

Fun fact: I actually sat with my kids on the Whole Foods patio and watched them eat an almond croissant before we shopped... it was excruciating.