It's like with every bite I take, a morsel of joy is stripped from my soul.
Do I sound like I'm exaggerating? I wish I was...but something about this stripped down diet feels like my humanity is gone. I'm not even wishing for cheese or ice cream, I just want a fucking almond or a chickpea. This shit ain't right. I feel sad, I have a huge headache despite lots of water, and I have zero energy... Like zero. My stomach is still bloated. My husband, who is doing this with me, says, "This diet makes me feel like a prisoner. All I'm doing is waiting to get out."
All the foods we normally love- Apple, avocado, potato, etc... We are starting to hate them. Today we said fasting almost seems better than this hell. I do better on my own restrictive diet and can still have a cookie. I feel full... I had a lot of potatoes and this vegan paella that sucked because I couldn't add any good flavoring or oil, but whatever.... I do not feel satisfied. Also, I feel angry. Angry and sad. Like... Life can be perked up with a cup of coffee. But take away all these tiny pleasures and give me a headache and sap my energy and I hate you.
Again.., I'm going to bed early so I can stop thinking about it.
Daily calories= 1,082
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