Don't try to to make your life something it isn't only because of what other lives look like immediately surrounding you.
It would be like skipping around in a book instead of reading the story as it unfolds.
I have 3 young children. I have friends with no kids... With 1 kid just starting the parenting gig... With kids way older than mine. I can't be on their chapter, I need to be in my chapter. My chapter has
Title free time, no nights out, lots of mess, wiping and exhaustion. I can't be bogged down with pressure to be glamorous while simultaneously always having clean laundry or helping with homework, then breezing out for a drinking night out with girlfriends. For me, it's too much. I don't have the resources to make that work without feeling burned out.
For many years I tried to hang on things I did before parenthood...not to lose myself.. But, for me anyway... The journey of being pregnant and birthing three PEOPLE was exactly that... A recreation of identity. I know more now than I did at 27 when I became a mother. Of course I am different... If I wasn't i would have failed to grow.
I'll embrace this chapter, for, as long as it feels (8 years running so far), I will be in a new chapter soon enough. No need to rush and try to live two chapters at once. Let me embrace where I am, what I have, and what life is NOW. Then I'll see what the next chapter's got for me. ;)
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