And you're little... for a little while

Our 19 month old is waking at all times of night and NOT going back to sleep... for hours. It has been frustrating-- and with 3 kids, we need that night time 2 hours so badly to get things done (lunches, dishes, clean ourselves, finish a sentence...) that it feels like such a violation when one of our kids doesn't go to sleep/stay asleep.

We tried letting him watch Sesame Street in the Pack & Play-- lay down with his sisters in their bed, cry for a few minutes in his crib... no dice. He was up... LOUD and up. We finaly left him in the P&P with some Sesame Street (Sleepytime Songs) and tried to at least finish up all the kitchen/lunch stuff. Finally-- we needed to just try to get him back to the crib... at 10pm...

He was all sad and my husband was going rock him down and I was annoyed... and he goes, "He's just a little person, he doesnt know-- he doesnt want to be annoying us"

And then i felt awful and said i'd put him down myself and I'm glad I did-- it was cozy. At one point I was singing along to Renee & Jeremy's It's a Big Big World song, and the end of the chorus is "do doo doo doo, doo do do doo"... and I'd sing the first "doo doo do doo" and whisper "now you"... and he'd quietly smile and say "doo doo doo". It was a moment. I realized how little he is right now... how much he needs me, how sweet and wonderful he is at this age--- how I will miss having the strength to hold his weight for 30 minutes and bounce on an exercise ball.

I was like AHA!... of course they have to annoy you or you'd be a mess all the time wanting them to stay little-- but the waking and such keeps you wanting them to grow

It's JUST enough to make you excited for a new stage.

One of those moments you wait for...

November 11, 2014

I just had a 45 min impromptu convo with the girls in their bed

it was like... the first real convo

not really

but just the LENGTH

they were asking questions about my life

it was so cool... about growing up and who my mom was married to, and if I was sad with just a mom, and then they'd (mainly Zoe) ask deeper questions... then she says "I man, this is kind of a compliment but I don't know if you'll think it is... How could you and Daddy have such horrible homes and grow up to be good people?"

HAHAH!

I said "why do you think our homes were horrible?"

She says, "Well, your houses just sound so... strange and odd... I mean...Pop would wash Daddy's mouth with soap if he said a bad word and his brother shot him in the butt with a bebe gun!... and Grammy didn't cook and you had to make your own lunches and shower yourself and you had a lot of responsibilities when you were pretty little."

I said, "Ha!  I guess that does sound horrible, but it wasn't!  We just want you to know we were helping out pretty young."

And at the end of this talk (45 mins), Seth comes out of Richmond's room and Zoe is talking so animatedly, and explaining things ad Seth said it sounds exactly how I talk. So cool.

The mannerisms, and inflections, etc/rhythm

Teagan asked (in that 45 min) "Why do we have a life?

I said, "Like, why do we exist?"

"Yep"

Zoe interrupted that she knew the answer... I said, "Wait for me to answer her and then you can tell us what you think it is... So... Teag... this is basically the question we try to answer the entire time we are alive. I'm not really sure."

Zoe says "Well, because --well I'm not really sure about cavemen--but besides that, G-d created----" I cut her off and said, "Wait-- just remember she is asking WHY... not how."

Zoe thought about it... "Okay, well we learn that the world is a mess. and we really don't want to leave the world a mess, so we are here to do tikkun olam (repair the world)."

Wish I could type it all out, but I have to make lunches!!!